update on us

I haven't been on here for awhile as most of you can see because of lack of posts. Well I am sad to say we lost our sweet baby girl almost 8 weeks ago. I can not believe she is gone, I am an emotional mess and my life has forever changed. I am in the process of starting a new blog to share my emotions, thoughts, fears, and my new life with you there.

My blog will be located at:

http://shegrewwings.blogspot.com/

I hope you will join me on my on new emotional healing process

34 weeks pregnant

I can not believe I am already over 34 weeks pregnant. Time has flown by. I only have two more 17P Progesterone shots (they hurt so bad but they seem to be working so far).

I go to the doctor every week for a NST and I have my next u/s next week. I can not wait to meet our baby girl.

I have only gained 6 lbs so far although I think this week I may have added 2 more to that my feet are swollen again since it has been hot here again. Although by the end of the week I think it is suppose to be back in the 70's.

I can not wait! I hope everyone is doing well, sorry I haven't posted in awhile life has been crazy with going back to work, daycare, therapy, doctors visits, and being so pregnant!

Tball, and more

So Sean started Tball a few weeks ago the first game was a little rough but with each game he is getting better and better.

It is so hard to see him run after hitting the ball and fall down. He always gets himself up but I wish he didn't have to fall down either. We are waiting to get his new AFO turbo where we can use it as an AFO or an SMO.

Dr. G. wants us to wear the AFO when he is active which for a 4 year old boy is 100% of the time he is never not active or he never sits still.

We are back to getting PT weekly because of the falling as well. It just stinks that every time he has a growth spurt he gets pushed back the damn strokes fault.

He has to wear dual SMO's right now until we get the new turbo but it will be a few weeks, and he has to wear an AFO night time brace. We have to bribe with stickers and ice cream to get him to wear it all night.

Other than that Sean is doing great we are about to finish this session of swim lessons and we start a new one next Monday but they are moving him up to levels because he can do everything he needs to. He is going to be with 5 and 6 years olds. We had to get special permission to move him up since he is not old enough. We are so proud of him.

As for the baby and I we are hanging in there. I see the doctor every two weeks because I am high risk and I get my shot every week.

We just had an u/s and my cervix is still long, thick, and closed at 4.6cm which is great news. I go back to Loyola for another my f/u u/s on the choroid plexus cyst on her brain in less than a month! I just pray that it is gone.

Until next time here are a few pictures of our little girl.

I don't have PINK EYES

So yep Sean has the fun, and lovely PINK EYE. Went to the doc this AM. The poor guy woke up to his eyes crusted shut.

He kept telling me he didn't want to go to the doctor. But I think that is because I must have freaked him out about it. I had to go to the doctor yesterday for my weekly shot and he was hyperventilating about shots and how he can't go or watch it.

Luckily my aunt was around and could watch him. Next time I guess I will just say mommy has to go to the store so we can go peacefully.

I felt so bad and than since we had to go today he was kicking and screaming too. But he let me put the drops in his eyes so far at least:)

We is getting so big he weighs 44 lbs and is 41 inches!

Its a girl

We are so excited! We just got home a little while ago sorry it was a long day. We had to meet with the geneticist first for an 1.5 and then we had an u/s for an hour. They took over 100 pictures, and then we met with the high risk doctor.

There are no signs of an in utero stroke, or closed lip schizenphaley like my son has which is great news!

However the baby does have a cyst on the brain it is a choroid plexus cyst. They offered and told us to think about an amino. But they said our risks for having a baby with something wrong do to the cyst is 1 in 1000. I don't know what to do or to make of all of this.

We are scared and nervous they told us that the cyst may go away on its own after 24 weeks on. Has anyone ever heard of this or experienced it? What should I do?

I only got a profile shot of the 100 pictures taken:) Babies heart beat was 160 and weighs 10oz!

7 more days

So I still have to wait 7 more days to hopefully hear those joyous words of you are having a healthy baby and it is a boy or it is a girl.

Part of me is so nervous but I can't wait to know if things are still looking okay. The peri that we are going to has seen on u/s what has happened to Sean's brain which is reassuring and frightening all at the same time.

I go for my first 17 P shot this Friday. I was suppose to start this past Friday but I couldn't get the medicine in time. My doctors office only gives them out on Fridays because that is when there are the most nurses in. I am so scared because I know it is going to hurt but I will suck it up to hopefully keep this little one in for as long as possible.

7 days and counting.

I can not believe I am 17 weeks already

Wow has time flown by I can not believe I am 17 weeks already. It is crazy how fast this is going:) The only thing going slow is waiting to go to the high risk peri and know that things are okay and we are having a healthy baby and if the baby is a boy or girl. Only 17 days to go!!!!

I go to my regular OB this week and will be starting the progesterone 17 P shots. I am sure that will be lots of fun, but whatever will hopefully help keep the baby in longer I am game for.

I have not gained any weight as of yet I am still down 8 lbs..... I know the weight will be coming though:)

I am feeling flutters all of the time and I have felt two kicks so far which is nice and reassuring.

Until next time the count down continues............................